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My personal experiences of being raised within a family structure of Domestic Violence, leaving as a young adult, and quickly falling back into the same patterns with an abusive partner in my early twenties, have been my greatest teachings in how I’ve learned how to heal.
Dissociating, hiding, and being as quiet as I can used to be my coping comfort creatures. To survive, I lived to always please others so they wouldn’t explode on me. I hardly knew who I was because I was so busy shoving her down inside of me to protect her.
At the age of 24, as a young mother of two children under 2, I began to actively flee Domestic Violence. Through this journey, I learned how to start sharing my voice more authentically and vulnerably, to "desahogar"/liberate my self-expression as I shared my story with others. Slowly the layers of shame and fault I felt for being verbally and physically abused by those who should have been protecting, loving, and sheltering me, began to peel away.
Since that first moment of choosing to walk away from abuse, I have spiraled into and out of the homes of my abusers for several years, hoping each time would be different, and having to flee again with my heart shattered. The process of severing oneself from intimate partner and familial Domestic Violence is not an easy one.
This is my personal blog and journey of the stories, tools, lessons, and healing modalities that have helped me overcome the challenges of being exposed to extreme domestic abuse, and how I have grown into a woman and mother who is not completely numbed out and traumatized by all of it.
The most important discernment was in learning how to escape the abuse, but to not escape my body. Returning to the truth and safety within my own body has been my greatest compass along this path.
"Domestic Violence" is abbreviated as "DV," and I've named this blog as a transmutation and transformation of that abbreviation: Divine Victory. In the climate of today's world, it's a divine victory for a woman to bravely embrace and lovingly tend to her body, rather than abandon it, no matter what hardships it has been put through.
Whether or not DV has been a part of your own story, I hope the stories, lessons, and embodiment tools I share in this blog will be enlightening for every woman who has ever felt stranded from her body.
With courageous compassion,
DeeDee <3